Still confused
Mood:  don't ask
Over the past few days just like I had explained to you before I am still confused I can't sleep because of this problem plus I just read these books that are fiction but the author makes you believe the characters are really real.. My heart feels like it has been stomped on a thousand times or I might be just getting chest pains for the thousandth time this year my palms are sweaty I feel like writing poetry but seriously have no clue what to say seriously my mind is getting the better of me I rather want to write than write poetry I know made no sense into that. But still that is just how I feel and when I feel something like this emotion I just have no serious idea what to do. Danielle is still getting me very twist-hearted like should I go tell the dean I actually know that I am the advice girl in this situation but still advice girls need help also like big time. What am I supposed to do? Aaahhh. Well I am going to talk to you guys later about this maybe tommorow on Monday so then I can give you an up-to date thing about my life and finally decided what to do

how can I do this
Mood:  lazy

My life has been a messed up wreck for quite some time now. Ever since junior year began which I am in right now, I had made some friends and lost friends. I just feel like friends are not worth all the heartache that I am goign through; even boys. Like I have to try so hard just to trust people but with being harassed when I was a child kind of screwed me up. Let me start with beginning of Junior year on the first day everyone was giving me dirty looks--maybe it is because I made some enemies in sophmore year.. Danielle Block is one of those ex-friends that I had made then lost. In mid-september to early october, she wasn't treating me like a real friend she was very rude to me treating me like I was a child, and I did not really appreciate that. So then she started to call me a bitch behind my back and in front of my face harassing me day to day. So I just had enough and went down to the dean that same day her mother and dani went to my mothers work but my mom felt like that this is not between the parents that it is between the kids. So then in December--mid, she lied to me twice saying oh kim made me call you a bitch then the other one was oh kim was the one who was calling you a bitch. I have no idea why I did this but then I started talking to her again. Then before last night I asked her if we could go to dinner and prom together she called me up last night that both of her parents said No. I think she didn't even ask her parents that she is just lying to me. Why do I feel like this? You ask. Because yesterday she had told me that she didn't quite tell her parents the whole story about last fall. I think she just didn't want to seem like the bad guy to her parents. But Danielle is a spoiled rotten brat, how do I know this for a fact. Because last year when she had spent the night at my house she had told my mother that if she sees a cd that she likes and asks my mom to buy it for her then her mom will just pay her back rude huh? Then I didn't go to it but this tobacco use prevention program which she still holds my head over it still she was talking behind my back when she was over there saying that I ditched her. I did not whatsoever ditch her. I was really sick with bronchittis then the flu and I was not caring only about myself but the others at this meeting too I did not want to get them sick people who did not deserve it. I know this might be kind of dumb but still I am just having this problem even though you may not know me which is kind of the point here and no one will never ever read this I still needed to say it out on the web because I am just having this big issue and I am still confused what to do about it. Should I go and tell the dean what has been going on and asking her why am I still talking to Dani. or should I just keep my big mouth shut and never ever talk to Dani again. Who ever knows what you can do in your life. I feel like I should just ignore her because she ain't a good friend. Then she has this friend whose name is Alyssa and she acts like she is better than everyone else and that is kind of rude she will ignore you just because of who you are. My parents already know this situation but the dean doesn't. This is a very hard situation too because she has 1st period with me only but she sits right next to me. Even though I know no one will probaly read this but if there is someone reading this please e-mail me and tell me what to do because I am utterly confused and have seriously like I said before No idea what to do. aaahhh! Don't you just hate high school life I can't wait until I go to college maybe they will be more up to the level where I am at here they don't have the artistic agrictulture like me that is very hard to beat. So I have to go but hopefully I will talk to you later.....

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